“You are so generous”
“You hold space for others so well”
At least, that is what I’ve been told
But where was that learned?
Did I learn it by standing with my dad as he performed auto surgery on the driveway?
Did I learn it by shouting “I want!”
and being asked
“What did you do to deserve it?”
Did I learn it by spending late, long hours in the company of myself working to prove that I am deserving?
Maybe it was learned in the middle of rush hour as I navigated the urban river trying my best not to die.
Maybe it was the result of my ability to listen because I’m already overthinking what to say.
Did I learn it in being the kid who wants to play but is too afraid to ask?
Did I learn it by being me?